Thursday, August 1, 2013

I haven't forgotten you, Blog ...

... I've been deliberately ignoring you! 

My major weight breakthrough (cracking 120 kgs for the first time since 1997 - at last!) was such a shock I fell off the wagon and my weight ballooned again. 

Well, I'm not going to go down the road of regret and lost opportunities. Looking back doesn't help a bit - Lot's wife looked back and was immobilized into a pillar of salt. 

So, looking forward into the future. I'm back, I've set new targets - my first goal is to break through that 120 mark again. I've done it once this year, I can do it again. 

Onward and downward as Dieting for Dad is back on track!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

A picture speaks 1000 words!


AND ... BREAKTHROUGH, at last!!


The last time I saw this number on my scale was in 1997 - I joined WeightWatchers in January 1997 (it didn't last) and weighed in at 117,4kgs. 

Now ... Forward! Onwards! My next target breakthrough in Dieting for Dad is that other mighty big number...

100

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Re-start

I'm still here! 

2013 is just flying by at such an incredibly fast rate, I haven't had time to catch my breath let alone blog about it. 

Before I talk about DIETING FOR DAD, I want to remember that this past week was the one year anniversary of my Dad's passing. One year already?! Where has the year gone? So much has happened ... but I still haven't reached my original goals.


We unveiled the memorial plaque for my Dad on last Tuesday.
"In loving memory of Isaac Benjamin Heinemann (31.10.1928 to 26.02.2012)
Our darling husband, father and grandfather.
Always in our hearts,
May your dear soul rest in peace.
Blessed are the peacemakers (Matthew 5:8)"
All is not lost! I've been working quietly in the background. My exercises are going well - have worked out a good routine and it's amazing how much better I can cope with exercise now that my Vitamin D levels are rising.

Weight wise, I've stayed within a 0,5-1kg range for weeks. Just haven't broken through that massive mental and physical barrier of 120kg.

Frustrated, I decided to see if there was another physical block as well as a mental block as to why I can't get past that mark. I went to a homeopath and he did a "live blood test."  I couldn't understand why those pretty blue crystals on the screen were bad for me!!

Was quite an experience -two small pricks on the finger, popped into a slide and scanned into a big computer screen so I could see the pale clumpy blood cells that were mine. He diagnosed me as a lymphatic iris constitution, as well as having liver and pancreas overload (he used medical terms, but I can't remember them) insulin resistance and a serious candida infection.

What that means is I've got a bucket full of herbal muti and for 6 months I'm on a diet from hell. The list of food types I CAN eat is about a quarter of the length of the list of food types that can't pass my lips. On closer look it's not too bad; with one exception, it's more a case of planning meals properly and making better choices. I haven't eaten sugar since my Dad died, and I had given up wheat (bread, pasta etc) for Lent, and those are two of the main causes of candida infestation, so that's helped. 

That one exception is going to be hard - NO FRUIT!! Not fresh, not dried, not tinned. I nearly fainted! I practically LIVE off fruit!! When I wailed and said "I can't survive without fruit," that ruthless homeopath said (quite callously I thought) "Well, if you have to have fruit you can have an apple."An apple? Like in one apple? Gulp.

I'm still positive and committed, though! Although the scale isn't showing it (yet!) I think I've been going in the right  direction - chipping away at the foundations of this weight problem, slowly changing habits and thought patterns. Eventually the scale has to start dropping and once I get through that stumbling block of the 120kg mark, I'm sure I'll just get stronger and more determined.

I'm also reading a brilliant book called THE ANGER DIET by Dr Brenda Shoshanna. I'm finding it enlightening! I've always felt I have a beast inside of me that I have to feed and feed and feed, which is why I've got so fat. And this book makes me think that beast has a name ... anger. I eat to keep my types of anger repressed. Thought provoking reading! You can read my review of this book HERE


The restart button on DIETING FOR DAD has been pressed - I'm feeling strong. Now let's see where this journey takes me in the next few weeks and, until I'm back with the next update, keep healthy, keep happy!

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Paused

That's where I am at the moment in Dieting for Dad ... paused.

No change in my weight for the past 3 weeks which is, I suppose, always better than going up.

January has started with a bang. More personal strife, and a very busy period of health checks - mammograms, bone density, dental and so on. All looking good except some serious bone weakening in my right hip (51%), a result of the Vit D deficiency. But otherwise, feeling good and starting to see some improvements in my energy levels and my skin, so the course of Vit D is clearly starting to kick in. Memory loss and depression still strong, but it's only been 6 weeks since I started the course of treatment. I must keep my expectations realistic.

I've also started walking - at the moment only 3 times a week, but at my current level of low fitness, that's about all I can manage! :)

I'm beginning to realise that before I can lose weight, I need to get my body and my life back in balance.

So, my Dieting for Dad goals have shifted slightly - getting healthy again, both physically and mentally, is top priority and, hopefully, losing the weight will follow as a natural progression from that.

Monday, December 31, 2012

End of year review

Here I am at the end of another year and I'm still weigh more than 120kgs.

There is a small critical part of me that wants to rant and rave at myself, but what's the use? It won't change anything. The past is what it is, and if I think back on the emotional blows and challenges of 2012, well, I did pretty good not to spend the whole year binging uncontrollably.

So that's what I'm going take with me into the New Year: under very difficult life circumstances, I did good.

And, in 2013, I'm determined to do even better.

Just to restate my Dieting for Dad goals loudly and clearly. By the end of 2013, no matter what life challenges the year ahead brings, I will:

1)  weigh less than 100kgs (that means I need to lose 22kgs or more.)

2) be walking at least 6kms 3x per week

3) be back to doing yoga at least 1 x per week

4) no longer be eating bread and other wheat-based products

Those are my Dieting for Dad New Year intentions for 2013. All that's left to say is ...

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Heading in the Right Direction

It's been another busy two weeks, with lots of positive developments.

In my annual medical checkup (which was a year overdue, having last visited a doctor in January 2010!!) my GP discovered that I have "critically low" Vitamin D levels.  Acceptable levels of Vit D in the blood are between 32-80; my current Vit D level is 8. 

Can you believe it!

I live in sunny South Africa and I have a deficiency of the sunshine vitamin.  
But what a huge relief it was to discover that the weird symptoms that I've been putting down to stress and being overweight was a simple problem requiring (oh, what a hardship!) an obligatory sitting in the midday sun 3 -4 times a week for at least half an hour and popping a Vitamin D pill twice a week! As I hate the heat, I'm currently only managing 15-20 minutes of sitting doing nothing in the sun (on Doctor's orders!), but I'll build it up slowly.

The difference in how I feel in two short weeks is incredible and I'm feeling strong and focused again (just in time to get me through a dangerous time of the year if you're a food addict - my birthday, two anniversaries, Christmas and New Year, all within a 3 week period!)

And as if that isn't enough good news, weigh day today was good as well! 

120,8 kg.

Yay! That all-important breakthrough point is in sight once again!! 

I'm telling myself I mustn't expect much next week, as I also developed a viral infection in the ear, which (according to my GP) has been chronic for a while... which explains the constant dizziness and slight nausea I've been living with for months and months (which, again, I put down to the stresses of the last two years, affecting my blood pressure.) I'm on cortisone to clear it, and everyone knows that you pick up weight on cortisone. Ugh! So my goal will be to just remain the same weight until the cortisone tablet course is over. Moral of the story: don't stay away from the Doctor for two years and don't self-diagnose!

So DIETING FOR DAD is still heading the right direction! 

(Free Image from ClipArt)

Sunday, November 25, 2012

A Luta Continua!

I haven't forgotten that I'm DIETING FOR DAD. I've just been busy with, well, with Life. 

As far as my dieting status goes, all I can say is  a luta continua!

But, as much as a struggle as it's been, I'm please to report that today's weigh day, showed a small improvement in the right direction...down!

Lost 0.8kgs today. I'm still 1kg off my lowest level earlier this year before I had my "slip," and still 1,6kgs off that magical, that momentous, that mountainous Breakthrough Point of 120.00kg,  but at least I'm heading back in the right direction.

Whew!

And another small victory is I haven't had a packet of potato crisps for about 6 weeks.

So, I'm in a good space at the moment. Not over confident, but comfortable that I haven't lost my motivation or my determination, even if they did wobble alarmingly for a few weeks.

A luta continua!